As my Saturn return nears, I feel every inch of my entire being vibrationally shifting.
Everything I’ve created, all those past dreams that are now my reality, I stand in their midst and realize my path goes beyond them. With fear, but no regret, I stumble into my next transition...
I’m no stranger to this phenomenon, but this time it feels different. This time it’s major. This time I’m having to deconstruct every belief, thought, and pattern that I’ve created for the past 27 years and realize that 90% no longer serve my highest path. This is rough. If I’m being honest, I’ve been resisting this for years. Repressing all I could. How am I supposed to follow these new dreams when they mean walking away from so much… awesome… so much love. I no longer have a choice if I want to live an authentic heartfelt life. The Universe has thrown me lessons in the form of humans coming into my life and poking at my triggers, needs that are screaming to be met and the cosmic alignment that supports this very transition.
My relationships and my lifestyle feel the force of this shift. As if I could fit in one city, surrounded by concrete and the excess need of things and business. Much less, an apartment that hover three stories off of the Mother. I find myself trying to explain this deep inner knowing, passion, urge to recreate.
“Please, my love, watch me burn, writhing in pain as the fire casts light on each shadow I have looked past. Rest assured, I will rise from the ashes anew and all will be worth while. If you love me, let me go.”
I’m the one leaving and I’m the one left. There’s no cap to heartbreak in a given time and it seems these past two years are my time to crack open, feel and renew.
What is heartbreak anyway?
I heard Light Being explain it as so...
The heart feels as if it’s breaking because your capacity to love has grown. It expands so much it feels ripped apart.
This is vulnerability.
This is your power.
This is your strength.
The fear is here to show limiting beliefs.
Fear provides acceleration points to growth.
...Well then, I guess I’m going at light speed.
So here’s to the rebirth process. In all it’s painfully beautiful glory.
Bring on the fear, the doubt and the judgments. There are lessons in each one. Stepping stones to getting me from one amazing vibration to a higher one I’ve never even imagined.
With every ounce of self-love, trust and forgiveness I can muster, I will follow my heart and see this through! This is what living is. Wild. Free. Raw. Passionate. Rebirth.
I embrace. I trust. I release. I forgive. I love. I thank.
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