Yes, yes, yes.
I hope you're loving this arrangement as much as I am.
2017 was... challenging... to say the least, for most of us. Personally, it kicked my ass. There were beautiful parts and intense growth making it well worth it, but holy shit!!! I'm exhausted and excited and doing my best to let it go.
Fortunately, we are now offered the deepest freshest new beginning of a year.
2018!

It would be nice to think that this is a rainbows and glitter kind of kick off, but the reality is, when we go deep, we go hard. Here is the difference between living this new year in a new more authentic way. Our habits, beliefs and energy of 2017 are now out-dated. We're new and different every moment. A certain death and rebirth takes place for us to truly step into something new. This rebirth could take an intense level of self-realization, self-trust and self-control not to revert back.
So for this pull today, I have a story that puts it all into perspective.

Story time: I once had an experience during a sound healing that gave me a better understanding of what I was really feeling and going through in my life. As I lay comfy on this furry massage table, convinced I would just try to relax and enjoy the sound of the didgeridoo in my face, I realized the Universe had something else in store. As I was breathing deeply and then was struck with a chest collapsing sense of anxiety. The death/rebirth had begun. I saw myself set fire, I could feel it! Beyond that, I was ripping at my ribs, right below my heart and into my core, pulling them apart. There was work to be done. The fire made me go back and I began pulling out old black pieces of myself that was blocking the beautiful bright parts from being realized. I kept digging and digging, I felt hollow and out of breath. You can breath through anything, I told myself. This space I created wasn't empty for long. I knew it had to be conscious filled back up with something new. As I continued clearing tossing this old nasty shit into the fire, what seemed like a large blinding ray of sunlight light poured warmth, and love right over my work. Things began to slowly settle and heal. The raging fire (five of wands) began to subside and I could breath again. Though this breath felt different, it felt cleaner, fresher, lighter, and I everything around me seemed to be glowing with color. For this moment, my anxiety was obliterated. I was living in the moment full of relief, gratitude and surrender. I was given the gift of this visceral experience so I knew it was okay to feel such intense and painful emotions because it was worth the end result. Rebirth.

This life is a hell of a ride sometimes. Find ways to take care of yourself during these times and stay open for clarity on how you prefer to live your life and connect with others. Support you loved ones and allow yourself to be supported. It takes a tribe and self-awareness to stay balanced, centered and grounded enough to come out the other side with our sanity.

Sending you all love and happy new year vibes!!!

P.S. Daran Wallman is an amazing sound healer. Check him out!

In a moment of weakness,
I saw myself,
big Heart in hand,
tearing it open and sharing it with people who passed by,
handing it over again and again,
they would walk on,
taking little pieces with them,
and then I would see another beautiful soul,
sharing more,
but little by little I felt weakened.
The classic empathic give away.


In a moment of realization,
I called all the pieces of my Heart back,
slowly melting them together with the most delicate glues,
self forgiveness, self love, self compassion.
I sealed it with trust of myself and of Spirit,
As I brought it closer to my center,
I hugged it tight,
as I did it grew brighter and stronger.


In a moment of pure compassion,
I smiled at my Heart and felt the connection to my being
which sent vibrations of bliss and fulfillment to every aspect of my Self.
The more I embraced my Heart,
the brighter it grew,
and that's when I realized... In a moment of strength and beauty,
Connecting to my Heart,
Embracing my Heart,
Following my Heart,
this is how I share my Heart with grace, ease and balance,
This is how I love myself
This is how I change the world.

~*~Dev~*~
❤️💛💚💙💜

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Ready for this?
Today is the Saggitarius Full Moon and, boy, is it sending us some strong energetic pulls.
It's time to drop the facade. "Everything is fine. This is good enough. At least I'm comfortable."
It is time to busy through the illusion and stand up for what we want!

Holy shit, America!

​It has been a strange and stressful period as we have come to this election day. The divide between us is strong and we feel this rip in the core of our beings, but alas, this does not have to be our future! (Though, my fiery Goddess, does it feel like hell right now or what?!) 
    The Five of Swords represents oneself fighting a futile battle with those around us. Actually, if you watched any of the debates, you may have seen this card’s energy quite clearly! When self-interest rules our actions, we began wildly swinging the blade blindly in fear because we feel threatened. It embodies the “us-against-them” mentality, the lack of focus on our moral compass and imposing ill-will on others to protect ourselves and beliefs… Sound like politics right? *What is the cost of this?!* Why are we swinging at loved ones? Why don’t we feel empowered by our thoughts and words? Instead, we find ourselves in a wild defense based on fear. In a crazy time like this, we must choose our battles wisely, with love and a greater future in mind.
    The [Trump] Tower shows us how our environment (or government) is exploding with change. This is a *major* arcana card, the energy is STRONG and the upheaval is REAL. Many of us are feeling the surprise and shock of what we hoped was a semi- solid foundation to build on, but here we feel the chaos exploding causing a nation-wide emotional outburst. Any foundation we once had is now being destroyed and we are doing our best to stand our ground as it quakes beneath us. Though, after moments of chaos and heartbreak come realizations of the big Truth. The illusions that were once hidden behind the veil are burning before our eyes. The well dressed puppets of politics have ripped off their mask and given us a face that matches their intentions. Yet, notice the eye that is above it all. Watching and shining out it’s radiant truth and wisdom. Chaos isn’t a ‘bad’ thing, it is a necessary thing when change is greatly needed. We must find the positive in this change and go within to find our personal truth and purpose…
    Which brings us to the Four of Swords. Though we lay uncomfortably upon our chaotic thoughts, if we give ourselves time to rest, open our hearts to Spirit and go within to our deepest core, we can still ground and connect back to unconditional love. After all, it’s the very fabric we were designed from. Find your happy place, run into Gaia’s belly, take time to breath, relax and let your Higher Self come in and show you the positive and show you the lesson. Going within is not running from the problem, it is facing it with your ENTIRE being. Stillness has it’s rewards, and you must allow it in order to reap them. I promise you that you will return to this circumstance with a new perspective that you can balance with peace and unconditional love.
    No matter who you voted for or who your loved ones voted for, we are in this together! We chose to be here at this time, under these circumstances with alllll these souls. So now we can ask ourselves, do we want to react out of fear or egoic victory? Or do we want to remain in a place of loving peace and shine our wisdom on the world? The choice is yours and there is no wrong answer, only your experience.

Namascray America!